2009 = 30

it's ok.

it's reallllly, ok.

isn't that weird?!

all of a sudden '30' is ok... to me.

never did i think i'd be excited to turn 3.0

but, i am.

and, i know why.

it's because i have seen the real progress in making peace with my 20's. 

in order to empty out my shit, to make room, i had to reconcile, reconcile, andddd reconcile.

so that i can start the funnnn creative process of re-designing myself!

i have been wrappin it up for a over a year now. 

the road has been in an interesting one, indeed!

magical, trying, chaotic, inside, outside, crying (hard), laughing (harder), organic, quitting bad habbits, creating better ones, intensely investigating all of my past relationships, saying 'i'm sorry', essentially just letting go. 

letting go of all of the crap, so i can be here!

fresh! new! and ready to go!

who would of ever thought that, that journey would bring me here! a kid, at heart! forever!

and it's ok!

i look younger than ever, i feel better, and i quit smoking!

the best part is that aquarians (my sign) are the 'celestial fave's' for 09'.

i believe it! because i am right on time!

so, bring it! i can't wait to see what i create!

it'll be fierce. because i am fierce. 

btw: i hate that word (fierce) when used by fag-hags. girls, once in a while. not all the time. it's like saying 'fuck'. u can't say it all the time, because then it has no power.

i questioned my race as a child, like most people, BUT BOY AM I GLAD TO BE ASIAN!!!

the aging process can be cruel, but not for us chinglings!

ok, make good choices, and later bitchez!