this should wake you up

... make good choices. quality of life is a choice.

right 2 left in 200MINE

sooooo, i realized that the post below mainly focuses on 'don'ts', and well, that goes against the 'secret' (uh-huh, yup yup) and against the 'laws of attraction'. therefore, i'd like to throw out to the universe all the crappers that i want for the new year.

here we go:

$- continue lightening the load (internal/external. check visual above)

$$- everyday challenge the yogi within me (... waiting for you to stop laughing)

$$$- continue exercising my open-ness.

$$$$- creating a brand new idea daily.

$$$$$- clean diet 

$$$$$$- being more involved in helpful world ideas, and causes. 

$$$$$$$- taking more classes on things that intrigue me.

$$$$$$$$- taking more classes on things i have no idea about.

$$$$$$$$$- rationalizing myself into 'cuddling'.

$$$$$$$$$$- force- touching (affection)

$$$$$$$$$$$- saying 'i love you' a billion times a day.

$$$$$$$$$$$$- working my way to cure my claustrophobia (mild. sorta)

$$$$$$$$$$$$$- continue gratitude prayer daily (fucking oprah)

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$- kickin up  the friendship bar 

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$- forgiving daily (ugh, but gots too)

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$- continue my fascinating skill of 'getting along'

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$- spilling my guts 1 movement at a time

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$- falling in love more than once every 6 years

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$- letting people in ( slowly, BUT surely)

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$- continue supporting britney spears

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$- going only towards things that make me feel good

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$- enjoying every second of my journey

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$- collecting amazing brilliant souls along the way

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$- always keeping in mind that time is of the essence (it helps me make better choices)

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$- using my energy for only the progressive (what/who ever that may be)

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$- surrounding myself with love daily

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$- staying conscious of trying new things daily

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$- being present ( new thing i learned how to do in 200gr8t)

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$- whatever enters has to exit in a healthy way

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$- evolving daily into being a better human being, so that i can be a solid resource for others

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$: HAVE A SHIT LOAD OF FUN ALONG THE WAY

ok, once again, gots to run. this list can go on till the day i die. come to think about it, it will. i know it may sound generic, but i've come to deeply recognize that all of these 'do's' are actually the truth. truth to a better life = truth to a better me= a better you... think about it. harder.

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ok, now that's out of my system (suppose to be an "H') the # 1 thing for me to get all of my 'desires' met is DISCIPLINE. i am a creative zany type, therefore i neeeeeed to create guide-lines for myself to buy my freedom (not by others, but ME.) and be helllla strict! some may say that's not balancing, but i know me best. i like to indulge, so yes it is 'balancing' when you really think about it. plus, i want what i want! ANNND there is an interesting process that comes along with staying in the line to get to what it is that you want.

ANYHOW, happppy new year, bitchez! enjoy the new year with all the good stuff! don't waste your time!

no more charity

ok, new year, new rules. 

numero uno- no more 'charity' dating. i've tried out 'personality' for the past few years, and it dawned on me that it's so effing played. i'm moving on! my shallow-ness is dying to come out, and mingle. 

realization: if the person is smokkkkkin, but a mental midget... well, who says they have to talk, OR you have to listen?! just pretend... let's call it 'magic' time. use your imagination! my taking is if the individual is easy on the eye's 'make-believe' is easier, but if it's only 'personality'... too much work, and i'd prefer to look back after the party is over and say 'well, at least he was hot'!  that leads us into numero dos- no wasting time! i refuse to waste my time on wack-ness. people, ideas, things, and my own bullshit. therefore, every second of my time will be worthy of... whatever crap i engage in. 

numero tres- no more recycling of the 'winners' (retardos) that i've had 'history' with. 

numero quatro- NO MORE MALE BITCHES! ugh, that's the worst, male bitches (passive agressive, overly emotional, can't control their emotions from reality, needy, attention freaks, reactors, basically drama queens!) severe turn off! not 'sensitive', but 'male bitches'... very different.

numero cinco- be nicer... i'm kind, but not so 'nice'... then again, i am one of the most pleasant people... in the universe... i'll keep thinkin about this one.

numero seis- be thoughtful, but not over extending. i am 'almost' a 'women' now, therefore 'over extending' translates to 'you gets none back'.

numero siete: keep myself 'light' on all fronts. i like that i have a breezy aura. maintain.

numero ocho: be consistent.

numero nueve: maintain being a great friend to my peeps. step it up here, and there.

numero diez: volunteering. continue financially contributing to my lil homie in south america.

numero once: continue seeking what i am all about, and what/who i am suppose to be. 

numero doce: being highly pro-active about staying inspired daily. 

numero trece: pushing my 'creativity' out of my insides in many different ways.

numero catorce: coming up with a structured story line for my 'pigeon' story... bite me!

ok, i have to go now. life calls, and well, i have to go attend to it... numero quince: stop being life's bitch!

life begins

THANK GODDDD the holidays are overrrrr! i ate so much that i want to punch myself! sall good. i had a great time with my family, and my slave (winston, shit-zu.) but damn, i ate like a fucking machine. at one point i wanted to drop kick my mom for force feeding me. i love her, but she was close to getting one to the chin. force feeding is very unpleasant, and force eating is a form of torture... perhaps the other way around... 

anyhow, hope everyone had a great time, and now i am going to go chase something.

work it out sista

i went to hot yoga today... i want to be like this fierce ho when i'm 30. 

get over it

people, leave me alone!!! i do not spell check, nor do i edit. i just type-vomit, and then post the bitch. i do not need to create another ocd.  happy new year!! btw: bday is coming up... be expecting a 'wish-list' from  me... via: email, text, and your mother. keep it real.